I'll try and not bore you all about this but last month, before the end of the relationship, my fiancee got into the magic business like expressed interest and was catching the attention of fellow magicians. Specifically older men. She is now in a relationship with one of them and I'll go more into that later, but whilst in our final few weeks, all the time I saw her, it was heavy raining. That should've been a sign lol. Anywho, she was messaging the person she is with now behind my back. Long story short, she was sending these messages where your alert mode on your partner suddenly hits the roof. They went as far as umpalumpa. And when I confronted her about this, she claimed it was a joke...Yet I didn't believe that. There were a few messages that was obviously messed up. Stuff like him jacking off to her semi-naked pics (she sent him them), her enjoying a fully nude pictures of him. I have a few screenshots, so if you want me to post them, I'll do so.
Anywho, she finished me out of the blue one day. No warnings and that. However, on the day she left me when I wanted to talk to her and that, she kept going away every hour, spoke to me and repeat. Until she told me she was leaving me because her excuse was she didn't want me anymore. Now I understood that, but that reason was
. Why? I don't get much money, okay and she would basically moan about how I never took her out places but that isn't my fault. 1. The weather at the time was balls, I did say wait until the weather got better and 2. I did suggest to her that we save enough money to go on Holiday or whatever, but no, she didn't listen. Why would common sense prevail. So after we broke up, she basically told BS about me to her friends and that I wanted to kill myself. Did I? No, I am not that stupid and then a few days later, she would try and target my family, saying my sister was a slut to put it short and blocked all of my family in cowardness...Anyways, a week and a bit later, I find out they are going together because he came all the way from Berkshire to the North East. I know lol. He planned this ever since we were still in a relationship and this is where is puzzles all the pictures together because here's the f'ed up part. He is 43 and she is 20...I know. So when I find out she is going out places because he has loads of money (he's loaded by the way) and that, I am just heartbroken...She would make lies saying that she wasn't finding love for a while and she falls for him. Seriously, my heart fell to pieces, and a few days ago, I contacted her fan page and I basically said if we could settle the dust and let bygones be bygones. She agreed at first but immediately declined and wanted nothing to do with me. She knows how upset I was and it didn't seem to bother her.
I mean, 4 years in a relationship and I really loved her. I wanted a future with her, I wanted kids with her. And one moment, I love her and she 'loves' me and the next second, she just finishes me to practically go for another guy. I assume she finished me so she could not be branded a cheater by her friends because they did plan to have umpalumpa and that by the messages. She did claim that they were a joke but I am sorry, as soon as he says he would have umpalumpa with you, you don't go "Oooooo yeah
" you just say NO. I have a fiancee but obviously, she never loved me enough to do that. So yeah, I am devastated and now you all know. There is a load of other stuff I'll post if there are replies, but the thing I wanted was your thoughts about this. She practically cheated on me but finished me for a few reasons. It wasn't to do with love solely so I want you guys to have your opinion, what are your thoughts if you've read that. Like I said, I'll go more in-depth on any comments like I do love her and I have basically been crying for the last 3 weeks because she has betrayed me...It just makes me think how long has she planned to betray me...It's basically unfair also that she bashes me for not taking her out to further places when I don't have a job, I don't have much money and I would, I would if I could but she knows we're paying off for Silverstone and she knows that unless I get a job, I can't do what he did...He is twice my age, I bet if I was 43, I'd take her out places cos I'd have money. But no...I hope the worst for her, I truly do. I hope her life falls from this point on because she has hurt me and I've been breaking down, crying and it's just funny how a lot of people are sticking up for her when nobody has asked for my side of the story, but she got messages from my friends to explain what happened and she never replied. Just my sisters asked why and she gave this bull....Thoughts people, could use someone to talk about this...
Trust me, in like two years you'll be talking to some young 19-20 year old going through the same thing you did and you'll know that there really isn't anything anybody can say to make it better and you'll sympathize and then giggle a little bit because you know it's a huge deal but you also know they'll pull through and be tough as $#@! when it's done. You'll figure it out man. 
Just wish she would understand who she was and what mistakes she has done. But I can't see it happening because she has illustrated me to be the bad person and the one that should be guilty...I want her back to hug and love me because she was so wonderful with that...But I know that if she did, I wouldn't accept her because of the stunt she pulled. Hurts so much...I just want to know what to do to get rid of these memories instantly because like I said, I want this pain to stop. I just want to get better to be honest. Tomorrow would be 4 weeks since we broke up and 3 years since we got engaged lol...