LRW, I get similar weird thoughts to you but not quite the same. More than thoughts really because they're not just in my head, like thoughts, but are more a feeling that goes through me. And if I try to grasp it and think about it, it disappears. It's a bit scary and depressing when it comes.
Best way describe it is I get a sudden sense of what is everything about? Why am In this car driving along here? Why such a complex world of issues and problems and decisions when we just die? But it's powerful because its not just a thought....because if I think it, then it becomes a logical consideration and looses its power. When this thing comes its like , almost like looking at something on a completely different level to how you've viewed things before. It's a feeling that flutters around at the edge but won't let me get hold of it.
And like you said, nothing whatsoever to do with a search for religion.
Well LRW, I've probably topped you for wappy thoughts this evening

But I do get the darkness and the sadness you feel .